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Tuesday, November 27, 2018

Shield came down - why still hurt those you love

From whence you have come - a shy, low self esteem beaten and broken child
But still have a will to do better than where you have came from.
Looking to break a cycle you have fallen into,
Trying so hard to shelter those you love.
Pleasing everyone in your path, trying to make it all work with everyone,
even those with differences in ideals.
Not caring about yourself just if others were okay.
Never speaking your mind for fear of rejection and being alone.
Yet with doing what you thought was right you forget yourself along the way.

When you do starting expanding your horizons to be a new you
Others look at that as rebellious or not what’s expected from you.
Do it this way or I walk, do it that way or complaints happen,
 do it that way because
When do others share that responsibility of accountability?
Is accountability only for thee?

Why is one pigeonholed and not accepted for themself.
Why is there only accountability for those that rub others the wrong way
or act not what others expect.
What is expectation - a soft spoken shadow of a person?

To break the cycle of abuse is to feel secure in your own skin.
Having someone stand behind supporting feeling and the protection to stop others from mudslinging.
To feel secure may create waves in which others may not like the process
to see who really is behind the shield that had been the barricade of safety.

Why tell one of your disapproval of someone else’s actions
instead of that person you have the real issue with?
Is it really because you care or because you fear the real truth?
Maybe “You can’t handle the truth”,  as stated in A Few Good Men (1992) by Jack Nicholson

Where were all those people that were helped prior to the rebellion,
when the one working on breaking the cycle was down and out medically unable to do for oneself?
Busy with their own lives that they couldn’t bother to see.
Or just not caring because of static that may or may not could happen?
Still the broken was left to find security on a whim and a prayer.

One gets sick of pleasing everyone, wants  to finally try to live happily.
Wants to be treated well beyond years past yet,
that is a wrong because it’s not acceptable from the masses.
Talking behind ones back is just a coward way of life.
Talk to the one that is the real issue is about instead of the one always hurt.
Being put in the middle degrades the strength that is already in short supply and totally should not be in the middle.
Not ass kissing fit others needs not thee.
Make sense of what others expect.
Who wants to fit into someone else agendas is not being accountable to self.

Where one has come from, the harshness of life is left behind.
If one doesn’t speak for oneself and aothers see it will someone st
Who is the broken ones backing?
Not family, not friend, not siblings, but the rule book gets tossed.
Then someone else will with a vengence and that’s wrong why?
 Live by not giving into those who only see rheir right.
 Wanting the broken to going back to pleasing the masses.
Abiding by everyone else’s feeling except that persons own.

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