today, before & the tomorrow's

Still feel like,

I have before.

Can I handle, what is next,

that, what is in store.

Empty inside, so willing to hide

the shame of being broken,

 without an even stride.

Off keel, of what it seems,

between life and diseases 

of the brain.

Thoughts of that should be

ones self, adored,

but hatred to me,

blinded vision,

 seems like

eternity.

 Wish to feel, no more.

my mom is gone

 so alone, I can't conceive

in a crowd 

anywhere,

 large or small,

few or many,

 faceless and shapeless

next to many.

 knowing or seeing

this beaten down, walked over 

someone

Now my friend is leaving

So long, yet not long enough
Staying busy 
Numb the pain,
Holding on to more than,
Those playing games.
Memories I will always have
My heart filled with
Love & laughter
Pictures from the past will help
To always keep their memories alive 
The love they gave me,
I will always give to others,
I am better because of them!